Tuesday, August 19, 2003 @1:00 AM
first day of prelims. GP and history paper 1. totally drained of ALL the energy left in me. i slept at like 12, woke up at bout 3, feeling uneasy about everything and just kept studying. i guess studying too hard doesn't really help. u've got to study just the right amount. i think i'll do ok for my nationalism and napoleon essay, but it's almost bye bye to my lenin essay. screwed up certain facts, confused russian rev with post germany unification. the anti-catholic laws that lenin imposed, i termed it 'kultakampf'! argh! almost killed myself. only realised the bloody mistake when Ms Ng took my scripts. i was like "thanks". argh! argh! *regains composure* well, at least source-based was ok. hope i can hit a level 6 - to make up for my lenin essay. i wrote a total of 4 plus 6 plus 4 plus 4 sides. 18 sides. 9 pieces of paper. in 3 hours. i just kept writing and writing. even up to the point of i didn't really know what i was churning out, but i just kept writing. i felt quite good after the paper though, other than the stupid german and russian mix up. and my stupid head hurting. i then went to the music centre, to study for tmr's MEP paper. was soooo drained that NOTHING could go in. hence, i slept for a while after copying notes from min yu's revision bk. i think both girls could tell that i was damn tired. i swear that i'm going to sleep for like 12 hours after this coming MEP paper. can't wait for it to be over. another essay writing exam. damn tired. now it's time to memorise beethoven, spohr, weber, liszt, schumann and saint saens. God give me strength.
'God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea.' --- Psalm 46:1-2
