Wednesday, March 17, 2004 @1:35 AM
By the time you people read this I'll be enjoying myself in Krabi...
Hope it'll be lots of fun. Though I've got lots of work sitting on my table waiting to be marked. But wth, I'll just push everything aside and play play play before school starts again.
Take Care and God bless all! =)
You are what you think. You are what you go for. You are what you do!
--Bob Richards
Monday, March 15, 2004 @12:10 AM
Some people get it good, some people don't. And what's that supposed to mean? It's life. Some people get everywhere even though their grades suck. Why? Because they've got backings everywhere. But so what? Not like we have a say in how things work. That's life. God always has a will. Something for everyone of us, of which I firmly believe it's true.
But, the world's still unfair. Then again, it's up to your own perceptions. "Just let it go," people always say. It doesn't really help because I still feel disgruntled when I hear about unfair treatment, or rather, what I perceive to be unfair treatment. It's sad that the world has to work in this manner. But it is a fact.
I don't care. Or so I say I don't. Well, not like it matters. Sometimes it's good when you just think about yourself and not give a darn about other people. Simply because it's your life. What am I going to do with MY life? Sometimes I feel that I'm just not grabbing every single oppurtunity that's staring straight in my face. Why? Because I can't seem to eat humble pie and go for it. Because I didn't get straight As though my grades are still pretty presentable. Because I think I'm overestimating myself by applying for going for something that's considered quite prestigious. It's difficult to just heck everything and go for it. However, miraculously, I seem to have plucked up some courage and go for it. Whether I get it or not is another matter. But the feeling of going all out for it gives me a sense of satisfaction in many ways. And I'm happy. =)
It's finally the school hols and my kids want a retest for their previous history test. Sometimes I really think I'm too nice. Therefore, I'm going back to school unpaid to give them the stupid retest simply because they did not study. Well, I'm just too nice.
But I am looking forward to chilling out during this break! =)
"Not by might nor by power,
but by my Spirit," says the Lord Almighty --- Zechariah 4:6b
Thursday, March 04, 2004 @1:49 AM
Classes today are pretty alright other than the last period with my banded NA class. There's some problem with the school's cockpit and the situtaion of a double booking occured. So we had to merge classes. The students from my class refused to listen to the teacher who was teaching and said that they'll only listen if I teach. The most disgraceful thing that happened was when the teacher asked Daniel to arrange the chairs, he continued stoning. Then when I asked, he said "Oh, Miss Ong, you asked me to arrange? I'll arrange." I was like OMG OMG OMG. Super stunned and shocked. Was sooooo embarassed in front of the teacher. Thank God I managed to persuade him to apologise to the teacher. Sigh... My little kids. Oh yes... and James treated me to lunch today to compensate for his brainless behaviour during English class. =)
Teaching's a little more pleasant these few days because I screamed at my form class, 2N3 for misbehaving and taking teachers for granted. That was Tuesday. This is because on Monday they were extremely nasty to me and I absolutely could not take it anymore. Though some nicer ones chased after me I just totally had to ignore them and be very very sarcastic to them. Therefore on Tues, I taught them a lesson and that I'm not someone they can play a fool with. The lessons I've conducted these few days have been quite pleasant I must say.
Maybe cos I screamed at them on Tuesday therefore I fell sick on Tues night. During PCO rehearsal I was freezing like hell and my throat hurts like hell. Everytime I swallow my own saliva, it'll be like a sharp blade rubbing against the walls of my throat. Came down with a high fever during rehearsal and felt really terrible. Wonder where this wierd illness came from. Suddenly, I was struck by it. Now, my throat still sucks, fever running a little and I get pangs of headaches and dizziness. Hate falling sick and taking disgusting medicine. It was too late on Tues to see a doctor cos I reached home at 11 plus. So my mom took out the relevant medicine she could find around the house and gave it to me. yucks! The funniest thing is that even though there seems to be a sharp blade in my throat, I have yet to lost my voice. Almost wanted to take a day off today but decided that I better go to school since there are lots of classes today.
And the big big news, A levels results release is on Friday! This Friday! 5th March! 5th March 2004! As I envision myself in the hall, mixed feelings overwhelm me. Excited, yet afraid. Nervous, yet anticipating it. Want to get it over and done with, yet fainting with uncertainty. I wish the day would come quick, yet I don't really want it to come at all. It'll be a big reunion on Friday.
