Tuesday, September 16, 2003 @3:19 AM
forced to come back to reality. 4 weeks plus another 4 weeks after baccalaureate. and it's good luck to me. gosh. i really can't believe it. can't believe the amount of stuff i have to complete by next week too! i'm sooo dead. DEAD. D-E-A-D. my gamelan research, compo portfolio, my recording, and the list goes on. the recording thing is just so totally driving me bananas. got to thank David Charles LOTS for agreeing to sing for me despite being so last minute. i'm terribly sorry. you know how disorganised i am. and Khong for agreeing to play for me. and of couse Zhon, who HAS to play for me.
"Are you depressed?" went to lesson on sunday and was asked that question. Reason being, i went for vadim repin's concert on saturday. what can i say? what can i say. but lesson was good though i still have to complain that my fingerboard is way way way too high. making playing open fifths double stops at high positions a chore. a pity i do not have fat fingers. Am given the choice of playing beethoven 'spring' sonata or a Brahms sonata. have yet to decide. Played through my A level programme during piano lesson and Ku said i've finally crossed the line of coming to class to practise. haha. i thought that was funny. schumann was sloppy though, as he says. "attempt to touch my heart. magical tone please. caress the keys!" now i always hear that in my head when i play schumann.
i'm so dead. hate to ramble off the things i have to do. have been playing way, way, way too much over this sept hols. it's scary how time flies. i'm so dead. O Lord, please help me.
"God is out refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble."
--- Psalm 46:1
