Monday, May 10, 2004 @10:42 AM
And that time of the year arrives again. Do not freak out. As roles are reversed, now I sit on the desk right at the back of the classroom, keeping an eagle's view over the kids in my class. (And yes, I finally understand how BORING invigilation is.) Obviously there was much time to stone. Hence, my thoughts will just run far far away from the classroom.
As I crept into lala land, I recalled how I used to be the one sitting on chair, a desk in front me, busy and frantically scribbling away. Now, I get to stare at the kids, imagining myself at the desk, points rushing to me. Then suddenly blank. That's when I don't organise. Anyway, that's beside the point.
As a student, I HATED exams. Now, as a teacher. I LOVE exams because I get a good break! I LOOOOOOOVE MY JOB! Other than of course, the stack of papers in my table cabinet, hidden away. Soon, I'll have to come back to reality and start marking. Oh well, that time will come. Soon soon soon...
Caught up with Joon online yesterday night. After the boys had to be patriotic and serve the country, everyone kind of vanished from the face of the earth. Haven't heard from a lot of them for eons. Now, right now, no matter where you guys are, I do certainly hope everyone's well and happy. =) To my girlfriends whom I haven't seen in ages, do take gooooooood care and we'll get together soon ya? =)
Anyway, thaaaaaaanks to Janis who got me that book! Now I understand why you got me that book. So sweet of you! Will definitely find time to read it! =)
"You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever."
--- Psalm 16:11 NLT
@10:14 AM
Dear Heavenly Father,
Creator of all things,
true source of Light and Wisdom,
lofty source of all Being,
graciously let a ray of Your Brilliance penetrate into the darkness of my students' understanding and take from them the double darkness in which they have been born, sin and ignorance.
Give them a sharp sense of understanding ,
a retentive memory,
and the ability to grasp things correctly and fundamentally.
Grant them the talent of being exact in their explanations,
and the ability to express themselves with thoroughness and charm.
Point out the beginning, direct the progress, help them in the completion.
I pray all these through Christ our Lord.
AMEN
Saturday, May 01, 2004 @2:21 AM
42 people in a class. Why are they so mischievous? Why are they so playful? Why can't they control themselves? Why don't they listen when they have to? Why do they do the wrong things and feel remorseful? What done is done and can't be undone. Why can't it be undone? Rhetorical question.
They cry over spilt milk. Once upon a time I really truly wanted to wash my hands off you guys but after today, I really truly want to help you guys. But someone please tell me how. Father, please tell me how. Once upon a time, I was really so drained and tired that I was so helpless. Looking like a haggard old woman everytime I go to school. After this one week break, an ominous sign had to peer out from the grey clouds and lightning struck. But no one was harmed. At least not fatally. They realise so many people care for them, yet all they break our hearts and continue to disappoint us. As much as I can show you the true sympathy, the concern, the wish I made upon a shooting star for everything to be reversed so that you guys will not commit the act, for you guys, I'm still helpless.
I've spoken to each of you. Individually, and as a group. Why then do you guys still do it? Don't tell me you don't know the consequences because I know you do. Don't tell me you've now let your parents and everyone around you down because you probably have weighed the consequences. Indeed you are punished for your folly. I pray for people to forgive you, to give you fair treatment.
Now what done is done. Learn the lesson. Don't act in folly again. Please don't. Be enlightened. You haven't really lost anything. Really you haven't. Perhaps some solid reflection will do you all good. Seeing everyone in tears certainly didn't feel good. Don't cry over spilt milk. Be strong and stand up again. This is but a small trip in life. You all are still young, capable, with a future ahead. I pray for your recovery from this incident, enlightenment, strength in each of you to face up to reality, and to be more sensible, growing in maturity. Never give up on yourself because no one has ever given up on you people.
Reality is harsh, cruel and real. Accept it graciously and work everything in your favour. Police case. So what? Big deal. You guys have got a long long way ahead. Start working on your bright future. I've got faith in you guys. Hence, have faith in yourselves.
Forgiveness is of high value yet it costs nothing.
"I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance."
-- Luke 15:7
