Thursday, January 08, 2004 @9:05 PM
Have you been looking up into the night sky and suddenly realised that you've taken so many things for granted? I have. The immensely beautiful night sky is tremendous these few nights. One cannot help but to look up into the sky. Gaze at the stars. Be blinded by the light from the full moon. As I walk along the pavement from school to the mrt station, the sky just screams out at me in a subtle way to look up. Ironic? Then my eyes shift upwards with my mouth gaping wide open, exclaiming, "Oh my gosh! It's B-E-A-U-tiful!"
My point is it's shocking how sometimes we take things for granted. I mean, how I take things for granted. Shall avoid using the general pronoun before I offend someone. Guess what? I can't wait for school to start again. Though I wish that time could come to a standstill NOW NOW NOW. Contradicting. I love having fun, no worries about homework, assignments, deadlines. But, sometimes I do stop to think about how's life going to be like on the day I recieve my A level results. Positive? Negative? Hopeful? Or is my life just going to fall down to rock bottom on that day? Scary it seems. But people always tell me it's too far away to think about it. But I'll get so traumatised when I think of the MEP paper. Even the nightmares are coming. I have digressed. See how the freaking A levels have destroyed my mental state?!
Anyway, back to taking things for granted. Ever sat down to think about how everything has always been there but we never cherish it? It's I, not we. The world revolves not only around me, but others as well. EVeryone, everything has always been there. But do I really treasure them? Or take it for granted that they'll always be there. Of which I know will never happen. No one can be physically there all the time. Fend for myself they say, but the world ain't revolving around me! Actually, the world is about everyone else and everything else other than me. I want to be in never-never land, where I'll never ever grow up. Never ever got to think about the future. Now, that's impossible isn't it? So quit thinking about it.
I need the sun. To wake me up from my dreams. To bring me back to reality. Of which is so much fun now. To bring me back to me planning about my future. I need the sun!
"What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us."
--Ralph Waldo Emerson
