Saturday, March 31, 2007 @12:45 AM
What a LOUSY week, BUT...Got back religion essay and was terribly disappointed, expected myself to do better because this is something I've done before in Soci of Religion. Looks like it didn't turn out well at all. We went as a group to collect the papers, and all of us got like low Bs and Cs, so you can imagine how it felt like the sky just dropped on me when I saw my grade. Then marathon of essays to write. Completed 3 this week, and took a test on Monday - which was more or less a test of "e-ni-my-ni-mi-ni-mo".. But that turned out alright.
Then just today, I decided not to go for Religion lecture cos I was so tired. Like falling asleep during bible and christianity tutorial while watching the breaking of the da vinci code. I was sooo tired that I kept nodding off. And it's not like I didn't sleep last night. Oh well...
After quartet rehearsal, dt passed me the ralph lauren polo shirt, the one I was sooo looking forward to wearing! And you know what? I lost it. Where, how, when, why? I DON'T KNOW! So upon realizing after coaching that I didn't have it with me, I went to CFA, went to YST to look for it. But I was utterly disappointed again. Sigh... It felt like the entire world collapsed on me. Really. I tell you, this is ONE thing that you have to experience yourself, cos no words can express how I'm feeling right now. The feeling of how useless I am, how careless I am, how forgetful I am, and how utterly LOUSY I am. Now the only hope is that I left it in Leslie's studio. But then again, I'm not very hopeful about this.
It's just an accumulation of things, of emotions that just totally broke it.
BUT...Thank God for my lovely DG. For Shereen, Terri, Jessie, Suma, Jody. Now I know that I'm an octopus, a lioness and a mother hen. hehe. =D Thank God for each and everyone one of you. Thank YOU for making my week, when I totally lost it during SMAD, so touched, cos of everything that has been happening through the week. Thank YOU for making me feel so loved, and so thoroughly appreciated. :) It was a tremendous encouragement.
Thank YOU girls, thank YOU for being a part of my life. :)
Thank God for Jon, who's always by my side to comfort, and give me a hug when I need it most. But God, I still don't quite know why all these has to happen within a span of one week. Why God? What do you want me to learn in this crazily emotional week?
