Thursday, July 19, 2007 @9:56 PM
God, I need to spend more time with You. Feeling like You're not so far away, but also not so near. Can't seem to communicate properly these days, sometimes I wish people could read my mind. Set aside more time intentionally to talk to You, to worship You, to read Your word. I know even if I don't say it out, You'll know what I'm thinking and all. So I'm really thankful for that.
Still got to make major decisions about piano - guide me!
Worship this Saturday, so lead me! Guide me to lead Your people into praising You and exalting Your name.
I pray that $$$ will stop making the world go round, and that people will not get so obsessed with making $$$.
Broken, inside out. Which is not a bad thing. Draw me near to You.
Dotz is married! I'm happy she has found someone whom she'll want to spend the rest of her life with! I think the song "When God made you, He must be thinking of me" so truly describes their relationship! I wonder if I've really found "the one". Don't know. Anyway, Dotz was so pretty and her evening gown was so diva and awesome! :)

Sweet couple! Congrats! You're married! :)
Things have been coming to a standstill, ever since church camp. No more cell, no more random movie outings, no more dinners outside, no more dinners at with our families, no more this, no more that. But some things have been occuring, nightmares for no reason (which I don't even remember but I just get very tired when I wake up), my eczema (maybe cos I'm stressed and thinking too much), Ivan hospitalized etc.
you've been far away, somehow I don't really know how to talk to you anymore. you've been too engrossed with work, with making more $$$. $$$ doesn't make the world go round, only God's love does. I only get to hear of things when decisions are made. Then I'd rather be kept out of the loop. How? Honestly, now I don't know if you're really the one. I think we're on different frequencies. It's like, we're not running into any mega problems, but sometimes I just do not feel the connection anymore. But why do tears still well up in me even as I think? Maybe I'm confused. Actually now I just want to spend time with God first, and my piano. I should velcro myself to the piano stool, like what min and I saw at Bach in AC.
Ok, my eyes hurt. Ouch. Hope the eczema doesn't act up again.